Many were shocked when Halle Berry recently acknowledged suicidal thoughts in her past. Probably because mental health is one of those topics we don't talk about enough. Now, some singers are opening up to MTVu via
HalfofUs.com on the subject.
Mary J. Blige, Pete Wentz of Fall Out Boy, Max Bemis of Say Anything and college students revealing painful details of their personal mental health struggles. Some excerpts include:
Mary J:
"I was being abused, I was abusing myself -- I got tired of living…I was suicidal, I was ready to kill myself. I hated the way I looked, I hated the sound of my voice. I hated everything about me."
Pete Wentz:
"The darkest moment was when we had just finished recording our major label record, and two days later, we were going to go to Europe, and I felt completely lost and out of control...I felt this depression were I felt like nothing I did mattered – to the point where I felt immobilized by it."
Max Bemis:
"Eventually, I literally snapped...I thought I was being filmed. I thought I was on 'The Truman Show,' essentially. I thought that my entire life had been staged for me. And that was my first manic break of bipolar."
I actually had a conversation with Max last summer. He was incredibly poised for someone having had those experiences. We didn't get into these issues and stuck to music. Someday I'll find the tape of our conversation and transcribe it here as originally intended. Meanwhile, look for the full interviews that produced the above excerpts to appear on MTVu.